Mug Cakes

Okay I won't post anymore horrible-for-you-but-delicious foods tonight after this :) enjoy!

http://kirbiecravings.com/

http://kirbiecravings.com/category/recipes/mug-cakes

http://kirbiecravings.com/2012/04/smores-brownies.html

Pumpkin!

So this should be a fall post but I just found a wonderful food blog and the pumpkin section is amazing!!! had to share the recipes!

Cannot wait for fall, make my allergies get better (slightly, there is the mold problem)
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Pumpkin Chocolate Chip Cookies

http://kirbiecravings.com/2010/10/chewy-pumpkin-chocolate-chip-cookies.html

MAEVELous

I just ran across this site and think its amazing and very clever. taking fashion and the marvel world by storm :)

http://www.polyvore.com/enchantress/set?.svc=tumblr&embedder=2437369&id=42840941
you can click on the majority of the links and be taken to this site where it takes you and shows you the clothes
http://www.polyvore.com/enchantress/set?.svc=tumblr&embedder=2437369&id=42840941

my absolute favorite it does not show the clothes for though :( I love my deadpool. and this outfit is badass.

and while Rogue is my favorite, her color scheme is a bit hard to work with, not loving this so much

But loving a bunch of others.

Black Bear Bistro & Cellar

So Id love to blog about something positive, and since being introduced to this place several weeks ago by my friends Paul and Kate, I fell in love deeply with this place.

If you live near or can decide the drive to Warrenton, VA. Black Bear Bistro & Cellar is an AMAZING experience!

http://www.blackbearbistro.com/

The food was absolutely amazing. Everything is organic, farmers market from that day fresh, or US grain fed animals, Seafood is also US. We had some chips to start off with drinks with a thyme gravy. The three flavors were amazing, getting the different hints of flavors, like drinking good wine.

The thyme gravy had that perfect kick of being thick and home made, that alone with the home made chips might have made me happy for the night. but no, then they asked for curry sauce....curry sauce? With chips? OMG..... I was drooling over chips. Kate got a white bean soup she shared with me, also fantastic. The chips also were not the super thing things you normally get, they were cut slightly thicker, but not super greasy.

We all got different things. Paul got their basic house burger. and let me have a piece. I very much understand why this is his all time favorite. They take grass fed beef, and put corn-beef on top. This made no sense to me until I tasted it. Sounds kinda weird....I really cannot keep describing the same words over and over so just trust me when I say GO TRY IT!

Kate and I got similar entrees. I got the crab cake sandwich and she got the crab cake. Now one thing I've always hated, especially even having worked at a seafood restaurant, was you pay $10-20 for one or two teeny tiny little crab cakes which are a little bit of crab meat with lots of breadcrumbs and filler.

NOT HERE.

For $6 you get, a sandwich the size of your fist with first knuckles spread, of CRAB, let me reiterate this, CRAB MEAT, with only spices and mayonnaise. Then your bun, lettuce, tomato, and choice of side.

I almost died  from sheer joy when Kate told me this. So I got to happily munch on a huge crab sandwich with homemade fries, thyme gravy, curry sauce, soda (bad me) and then had dessert.

Dessert as the rest of the meal, was amazing. I had a chocolate cake, and brought some home to my grandmother cause I had to share something this good. Kate and Paul had a Strawberry Key lime Pie. Yes, I got a bite and wow. The chef here is a genius. It tasted like a strawberry smoothie, with a hint of the key lime, in a pie.

Overall, I think my entire bill for an amazing meal for myself, $15.00 including tip. For the amount of really amazing food we had, beyond reasonable.

Also all of their drinks use fresh fruit, you can see on the website :) So if your in the area, please check this place out, they are beyond worth it! You also may want to call ahead for reservations.

Needless to say, I have been dying to go back.

Now for some fun!

Pumpkin Ravioli!!!
http://how2heroes.com/videos/entrees/pumpkin-ravioli

Botticelli if his models has been a size 0, very interesting. Really gives us a good view on women having curves and our brains melting at how weird they look without them.
http://www.dailymail.co.uk/news/article-2098355/What-Botticelli-Photoshop-Artist-imagines-classic-images-goddess-love-Venus-size-zero-treatment.html

The Island of Misnamed Toys
Currently one of my favorite youtube videos
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_X-9BlmGVn4&feature=youtu.be

Seriously its NOT A CHALLENGE!!!!! This month has been horrible. As has last month. This needs to stop, right now, end of discussion.

• My mom passed. 
• One of our dogs had to be put down due to an accident
• Pulled my back at work and am on workers comp. Thus not many hours, little pay. Though that is better than none at all.
• My car needs some decent work and as stated above
• Car does not want to start, thus emergency work. lovely. 
• A very close member of my family who is on dialysis and having breathing problems was diagnosed with having two cancerous tumors and needs them surgically removed (one is on his hand, and he is a graphic artist). 

please pretty please, no more bad stuff. I need good things now ok?

 

Missing Mommy

So the hardest time for me right now, is grief. Grieving, the lack of it, the confusion, emotions, etc. She passed away March 1, 2012 from Lou Gehrig's disease. Symptoms to passing, 3 years. Mom's battle was quick and rough. But we did everything we could, loved her, took care of her, eventually hospice became involved, who were absolutely wonderful, and our amazing CNA Mayra. It was hard, hard on everyone. My grandmother was her main caretaker, and me, her daughter, her other one. It's a horrible, horrible disease. I would never wish it upon anyone; it leaves people questioning why it exists. Thankfully moms’ passing was quick, quiet, not in pain, not afraid.

It was hard, it still is. So many things left behind. I've been pushing myself to go through things, donations, sell, keep. It becomes very difficult, finding old things you remember as a child, but have no room for, or use for. What to do with them? Would you decorate your house with it? Drawing to the basics is very difficult. Cleaning I found some interesting things, foreign coins, stamps, pictures. Tons of pictures, so many pictures I have no idea what to do with them all. I have no room for them all. Should be interesting to say the least. 

Numbness comes and goes. I found a perfume vial that reminds me of when I was little, I decided to keep it. I won't wear it but I know some days I may have a meltdown because I can't trigger certain memories. Smelling the perfume made me think of being hugged and her hair in my face. Things were not always easy, but she was my mom, and she will always be with me. She is not in a world of pain or grief, lies or suffering.

Finding some papers that should not go into the trash, we luckily have a wood burner outside that sufficed. I like fire and somehow watching the papers burn was very soothing. I could imagine all the painful emotions simply going away, being cleansed, and purified. 

ALS is a horrible disease; your body becomes a shell while your mind is intact and able to think. I cannot believe nor could even try to comprehend what my mom went through. But I know she had us there for her, she had her family. I know she will always be with me and she loves me very much. I love you mom, and I miss you. There are many strides being made with ALS in science, I can only pray soon, they will find a cure.

Thank you to all of the people who have and who still are helping me through this time; family,rob, kim, jason, pete, charlie, brugioni clan, kate & paul, leeper family, feepit crew, mayra, melanie, and anyone who I've forgotten. It means more to me than I can say, I love you all. <3